ClEARING THE DUST

CLEARING THE DUST As for hungry ghosts, the point for me is NOT to assume I extinguish them. I befriend my "darkness" or my hunger or my craving without getting to the goal of YAY! FINISH. END OF GAME-YOU WIN A BRAND NEW EUREKA VACUUM! The game continues and the board pieces are still there. If it is not in food where I extinguish this vacuuming up of "filter" for feelings, this does not mean it does not exist for me. I do not feel safe assuming I have extinguished this. EVen a sense of wanting to do one thing while doing another--this, to me is a hungry ghost. That is why I say, when someone says "that person is an addict" there is always a chance to turn the finger around. So I may not go out and get plastered like Joe does, but I maybe get aggressive when I am driving. Why? Really, it is not simply "they made me" b/c they did something stupid. My way of looking at it, is that this feeling that is "stimulated" in me is ALREADY THERE. Food did not bring it. Nor does food release it. Nor did the clothing purchase, or the sex, or the lack of that new job I want. That is why I continue to say, ad nauseum, it is not just about the food (Fill in the blank with your particular habit. That is one of many for me.) But it is up to each person how far they want or need to dig. I don't really have another option because the light of recognition is shining. It goes dim during all sorts of moments. It shines in others. HOw tedious? Maybe--or maybe, how freeing, how expanding. HOw negative? Maybe--or maybe looking and seeing the dust under the bed means I can clear it.